|"When your heart speaks, take good notes."|
You know what? People always talk about having family as support. But truth is, there is no relationship stronger than that of a spouse. Well, maybe that of a parent and child. But that doesn't count in my case. I have no parents. And a person may be quick to say I have siblings. But in all honesty, siblings can love you to death but they will spend most of their time trying to perfect their romantic relationships with their spouses. Friends will do the same as well. Why? Because, for the most part, they live together and are viewed as the family they CHOSE. Not one they were born with. Romantic relationships are the most intimate and fulfilling.
How could I love the one who hurt me? Because I have been doing it my entire life. It's called family...
There's a reason I said I'd be happy alone. It wasn't cause I thought I'd be happy alone. It was because I thought that if I loved someone, and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It's easier to be alone. Because what if you learn that you need love and then you don't have it? What if you like it and lean on it? What if you shape your life around it and then...it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It's like dying. The only difference is death ends. This, it can go on forever.