After the boys hung out his dad invited me to his house for a barbecue. They are Cuban so they love to eat. It is a large part of their culture and his dad cooks so good. Everything he makes is scrumptious. I went as not to be rude because I know his wife has no friends and needs some girl time every now and then. Plus, that would give Cuddle Bug and his friend more time to hang out and get a free meal. I, on the other hand, had to be tortured to resist temptation. He made barbecue ribs and french fries. I wish you could see my face right now. This is how I was looking when I saw the food being prepared.
It was time to run. If you have been keeping up with my blog you would know that red meat (ribs) and french fries (with salt) are two of my greatest weaknesses. I hung out with his wife and talked for a while. I could tell she was happy to have someone to talk to. I like to make people happy. But for some reason, for the past year or so, I have been more focused on making women happy and trying to get them to love themselves. I don't think women receive enough love or positive energy from their partners, children, jobs, or even other women. I want to do my part in changing those dynamics. Women need to unify instead of seeing each other as competition or threats. And women need to stop doing things to be viewed in that light as well. It's not a one way street. But it's not too late to change.
There are not a lot of healers in my city. But there is definitely an abundance of diseases, including AIDS. Once I come out of this thing on the other side I would love to do something about that. Possibly start a fund raiser of some sort to be able to provide healing services for free or at no cost using Dr. Sebi's products. But I have to take care of myself first.
After the barbecue I went home to clean my house. Cuddle Bug asked me if I was going to make spaghetti. I guess my growing man is developing quite the appetite. So, I postponed the cleaning to make dinner. Spelt spaghetti, chickpeas and mushrooms as requested by my young prince. He devoured every last bit.
After dinner I continued to clean up but I could feel my energy fading rapidly as I had taken the Genvoya not too long ago. I pushed myself to finish cleaning and organizing the kitchen, bathroom, and my bedroom. I still have to do my Cuddle Bug's room and mine. The little bit that I did get done gave the house a whole new feel. I could think clearer. I felt free. The herbs always clear my mind. Now I was able to focus long enough to clear my home. I felt encouraged from that alone.
I have been doing Self-Assessment Saturday for a very long time. On Saturday is when I do my most intense meditations and deep analytical thinking. It helps me to become a better person by focusing on areas of which I can improve. I have definitely come a long way. Especially with my anger. That has been one of my main issues. I used to be the type of person who was always quiet and observing every one and every thing around me. Then when someone offends me or my child, or one of my brothers, I would hand them their ass. I would fly into a rage. But I am happy to say that I am changing. I still tell people about themselves when necessary but my first resort is to hold my tongue because I realize a lot of people are not aware of WHY they do what they do because of the mental levels they are on. They are still bound by the psychological locks society has placed on them and I try to be understanding.
On this Saturday, I have also realized that things are going to get better for me. I mean a whole lot better. I will be cured and in the process I will be able to help others. My son is watching me and he is growing in my image. I am proud of the path I have laid out before him all on my own. He will be a great individual. Greatness flows through his bones even now at just eight years old.
Everyday I am getting mentally and emotionally stronger. Yes, some days my body feels physically sick. And some days I cry until my tear ducts dry out. But that is just a necessary release to get me back on my feet again to keep on trucking. I'm going to need to be stronger to deal with what is ahead of me once I overcome this disease and try to reach out to help others. There are going to be those people who will deny that I am cured despite the paperwork being in their faces. Who knows, once I open up, I may be always known as the "AIDS girl" by ignorant people. And we all know there are way more ignorant people than those with sense. We are outnumbered. But am I ready? This didn't happen to me for no reason. I better be...
I have so much to share with others. How to cope with dating an undercover homosexual. Overcoming HIV/AIDS. Being a single mom. Being a foster child. And just being a woman and loving yourself in general. In all of these areas I have so much to offer. People need to be able to see others relate to their struggles.
The Genvoya is definitely keeping me up at night. It's an endless nightmare of torture. I finally fell asleep after four in the morning and woke up at 2 pm.
I dreaded taking the herbs last night. I really despise the smell and thickness of the liquids. They make me want to puke. However, the Iron Plus is not so bad. It doesn't have such a strong smell and the liquid is not that thick.
I learned that I am not untouchable because of my good heart and kind deeds. I learned that I am not immune to heartache and deceit just because I am loyal and loving. I learned that I am not immune to diseases just because I am monogamous, drug-free, and physically fit. I learned to smile and keep my guards up at all times. I learned not to let anyone in. I am an island of strength and weaknesses, yet still I rise. I am powerful. I am Queen Selah and you're going to hear me roar!
I'll share the excerpts from Dr. Sebi's other book in a future post.
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