Friday, March 4, 2016

Day 106 - Friday, March 4, 2016

I woke up crying and hyperventilating badly! My heart is broken. How long could I run from that fact? I had a dream about Anthony and Kevin last night. I ran into him at a local market and Kevin was not too far off. Kevin kept trying to attack me (verbally) while Anthony and I were talking. Anthony looked like a puppet not able to do or say anything without the permission of his master. Long story short, he asked me why I was acting the way I was. I told him that he hurt me by being so deceitful. By not disclosing his status and his sexual orientation. Honesty goes a long way with me. Against Kevin's wishes, he apologized to me and told me now he understands. 

I immediately shot up out of bed because that is the apology I never received. That is the apology I will never get and I am deeply disturbed by it. I am not even worth an apology...

I sat up in bed rocking and crying and made it in to work two hours late. I don't care sometimes.

I'm at work now, so I may blog a little later and check the comments. I'm also going to try to finish the book today.


To be continued...

11:20 AM:

Based on some of the comments and suggestions posted by my readers, I have decided to do some follow up research in several areas. I will post my findings below:

I asked one of my readers what does it truly mean to be "undetectable"? The reader said they have been undetectable for 7 months now. Sometimes I like to hear from real people who are living with this disease rather than just doctors who read about it. i did my research and discovered that an undetectable status means the viral load of the disease is less that 20 copies, an amount which is so low that it does not show up in most blood tests.

I, too, am looking forward to being undetectable. Then cured. Thank you reader and best wishes to you on your journey to healing.


Charlie Sheen is Undetectable

The prevalence of HIV: An estimated 1.2 million are currently living with the virus in the US

This is so sad. Why am I not surprised that the leading numbers in HIV infection are homosexual black men followed by heterosexual black women? Maybe because it happened to me. Anthony was a homosexual black man sleeping with another homosexual black man, then infected me with the disease. It's a shame how selfish people can be. Well there are the figures. I'm not making this up. I am just a little shocked because I wanted to believe that it was just a false stereotype that HIV was a predominantly gay disease. But there it is below.

HIV remains most prevalent among  men who have sexual intercourse with men (MSM), followed by black heterosexual women and black heterosexual men 

A candid interview with Charlie Sheen and Dr. Oz where Charlie opens up about a dream he had when he was 28 years old and he had AIDS. He said he knew it was going to happen. The part that caught my attention is when Dr. Oz tried to label his "ups and downs" in life as bipolar disorder and Charlie responds by rejecting that title and calling it "peaks and valleys." Yes, I like that. "Peaks and valleys." People are too quick to label someone bipolar, even non-degree holding individuals. When it comes to bipolar disorders, everyone seems to feel they are qualified to diagnose someone. I really feel that word is used to loosely.

Dr. Sam Chachoua claims to have naturally cured HIV/AIDS in the entire island of Comoros and to have treated Sheen. He claims Sheen's new doctor is taking credit for the improvement in his health. Charlie Sheen claims that is a lie and that he does not believe in natural medicine.

A clip of Dr. Sam Chachoua claiming that he injected Charlie Sheen's blood into himself because he was that confident that his treatment works. It's funny that this too place is Mexico because that is the same place Dr. Sebi was cured of all of his ailments. I am still trying to find the footage of Charlie Sheen and Dr. Chahoua in Mexico. Allegedly, Dr. Sam did not want this footage released.

This clip of what happened when Sheen discontinued the use of his meds scared the crap out of me. Now, I am having second thoughts. I'll have to follow up this research with more research on Dr. Sebi's methods.

Wow! This is unbelievable.

The risk of transmission with an undetectable partner.

Charlie originally claimed that Dr. Sam Chachoua's natural therapy was working for him.

Pre-exposure medication and the risk associated with sleeping with an infected person.

There are so many conflicting stories. This is one about a medical facility getting rid of the AIDS vaccine on purpose then claiming to have lost it.

Charlie Sheen's Blood Mixed with Healthy Blood remains UNDETECTABLE from Dr. Sam Chachoua's therapy.

Last video clip on Charlie Sheen. Then I will move on. Interview with Dr. Sam and Bill Maher. Charlie Sheen says "Poo Poo Pants" is a side effect of taking the modern day conventional medicine for HIV.

I am a bit skeptical of this Dr. Chachoua but I do not know much about him to cast a fair opinion.


What does the test result mean?

HIV viral load tests are reported as the number of HIV copies in a milliliter (copies/mL) of blood. If the viral load measurement is high, it generally indicates that HIV is present and replicating. Initial, untreated, and uncontrolled HIV viral loads can range as high as one million or more copies/mL. In someone who has had HIV for some time but has not yet started treatment, a high viral load means that the person's immune system is no longer able to suppress HIV replication and that the disease is progressing. In someone who is being treated for HIV/AIDS, it means that the treatment is not effective. During treatment and monitoring, a high viral load can be anywhere from 5,000 to 10,000 copies/mL.
A low viral load is usually between 40 to 500 copies/mL, depending on the type and sensitivity of the test used. This result indicates that HIV is not actively reproducing and that the risk of disease progression is low. An undetectable viral load in someone who has a diagnosed HIV infection does not mean that the person is cured; it means only that the level of HIVRNA is currently below the threshold needed for detection.
Changes in viral load can often be more important during HIV monitoring than a single test result. An increasing viral load indicates either that the infection is getting worse or that the virus has developed resistance to the drugs that are being used for therapy and are no longer effective. A decreasing viral load indicates improvement, treatment effectiveness, and suppression of the HIV infection.
So, based on what I read above, I have a low viral load since it is below 5,000 copies and I have not taken HIV medication.

Test Summary
HIV-1 RNA, Quantitative Real-Time PCR
Clinical Use
  • Assess prognosis
  • Monitor progression of HIV-1 infection
  • Monitor effect of antiretroviral drug therapy
Clinical Background
Measurement of HIV-1 RNA plasma levels (viral load) provides quantitative measurement of viremia and is used in conjunction with CD4+ T-cell counts. The baseline (pre-treatment) HIV RNA level, combined with the baseline CD4 count, predicts progression to AIDS and death.1,2 Periodic viral load assessment is used to track progression of the infection and is the most important indicator of antiretroviral treatment response. Stable or increasing levels are associated with disease progression and/or treatment failure, whereas decreasing levels indicate therapeutic response. The primary goal of treatment is to decrease the viral load below detectable levels (<48 RNA copies/mL for this quantitative PCR assay), which typically occurs within 12 to 24 weeks.3
Measurement of the HIV RNA level and the CD4 count is recommended at the following intervals: 1) at entry into care; 2) every 3 to 6 months to monitor progression of HIV infection in untreated patients;
3) 2 to 8 weeks after initiation of therapy and every 4 to 8 weeks thereafter until the viral load is below detectable limits; 4) 2 to 8 weeks after changing therapy; and 5) every 6 to 12 months to monitor continuing effectiveness of therapy in stable patients unless new treatment with interferon, corticosteroids, or anti-neoplastic agents is initiated.3 HIV-1 RNA testing is generally not recommended within 4 weeks of immunization or resolution of intercurrent infections.
Individuals Suitable for Testing
  • Individuals recently diagnosed with HIV-1 infection
  • Individuals who are in the clinically latent period of the infection and not receiving antiretroviral therapy
  • Individuals receiving antiretroviral therapy
  • Reverse transcription of RNA, followed by real-time polymerase chain reaction (PCR) amplification of cDNA
  • Fluorescent detection of HIV-1 cDNA
  • Reportable range: 20–10,000,000 HIV-1 RNA copies/mL (1.30-7.00 log copies/mL)4
  • Specificity: HIV-1 group M subtypes (clades) A through H4
  • Aliases: human immunodeficiency virus-1 (HIV-1) viral load
Values obtained from different methods (eg, bDNA, PCR) are not interchangeable, owing to variations in reagent specificity and other methodological differences. Use only one method when monitoring patients. If the methodology is changed, re-baselining is highly recommended prior to making clinical decisions.

COENZYME Q10 & OREGANO (As Suggested By One of My Readers)


Coenzyme Q10 (CoQ10) is a substance that helps convert food into energy. CoQ10 is found in almost every cell in the body, and it is a powerful antioxidant.
Antioxidants fight damaging particles in the body known as free radicals, which damage cell membranes, tamper with DNA, and even cause cell death. Scientists believe free radicals contribute to the aging process, as well as a number of health problems, including heart disease and cancer. Antioxidants, such as CoQ10, can neutralize free radicals and may reduce or even help prevent some of the damage they cause.
Some researchers believe that CoQ10 may help with heart-related conditions, because it can improve energy production in cells, prevent blood clot formation, and act as an antioxidant.


Some studies suggest that coenzyme Q10 supplements, either by themselves or in with other drug therapies, may help prevent or treat the following conditions:


Preliminary clinical studies also suggest that CoQ10 may:
  • Improve immune function in people with HIV or AIDS
  • Increase sperm motility, improving male fertility
  • Be used as part of the treatment for Parkinson disease
  • Improve exercise ability in people with angina
  • Help prevent migraines
Scientific studies are needed to see whether CoQ10 can be safely and effectively used for these health problems and needs.

Health Benefits of Oregano

Its Essential Oil is well known in natural health communities for its antibacterial properties, and it is even being studied by the mainstream medical community for its potential benefits. It is considered to be antibacterial, antiparasitic, antiseptic, antiviral and immune stimulating.
Like the fresh herb, Oregano Oil has very high amounts of antioxidants. It is often used internally during illness, and externally for skin infections (including yeast) though it should be diluted before use. Due to potency, it is important to check with a qualified specialist or practitioner before using this or any other herb, especially during pregnancy or breastfeeding.
I’ve used a drop of oregano oil in my daily oil pulling routine to help promote healthy gums.
According to this article:
Studies have shown its usefulness against candida albicans, aspergillus mold, staph infections, vaginal infections, pseudomonas and listeria. A study from the US Department of Agriculture showed that the essential oils presented antimicrobial activities against Salmonella and E.coli. Other research holds the same, stating that oregano oil is such a powerful antimicrobial that it can be used to preserve food. Studies from the Department of Food Science at the University of Tennessee and the University of the Algarve found that similar results for oregano’s antibacterial action on pathogenic germs.
A recent study from the Department of Physiology and Biophysics at Georgetown University Medical Center, stated the following in regard to the role of essential oils for infections:
New, safe antimicrobial agents are needed to prevent and overcome severe bacterial, viral, and fungal infections. Based on our previous experience and that of others, we postulated that herbal essential oils, such as those of origanum (oregano oil)…offer such possibilities.
In an article published on Science Daily, the essential oil was found to be effective in killing Staphylococcus bacteria. It was also equally as effective in its germ-killing abilities as common prescription antibiotics.
Thank you readers for all of your feedback thus far. I do research them when I have time.

I am going to be leaving work soon and preparing to take my son to karate practice. I guess today has turned into research day. Some of my findings have been discouraging but there are a few that are telling me to press on. Only time will tell the outcome of my research. 
I will try to find time to continue reading Dr. Sebi's books and my readers' comments and maybe these things will help me to make an educated decision as to whether or not I want to proceed with treatment. And if so, which treatment will I choose, Dr. Sebi's or conventional?

To be continued...

I rushed home from work to park my car and get my son's dirt bike before school was out. I wanted to surprise him. I rode his bike to the door where his class is dismissed. When his class was released, he came out and began to squeal with joy once he saw his dirt bike. I love when he makes that sound. All of his classmates were oohing and ahhing and telling him how cool he was. He gave me a hug before he put on his helmet. Then he rode home while I ran behind him.

We went to the karate dojo an hour before class began in order to have it to ourselves to practice. I have this little trick that I do when I want my son to improve in karate. I ask him to teach me his forms (kata). This way he has to pay very close attention to detail and it builds his self-confidence once I get it. He taught me his entire kata in less than twenty minutes. I love him.

Once practice began, he reclaimed his title as the reigning champion of his class. The sensei had him to lead the class and be an example numerous times. And he also won every match against each opponent flawlessly. He made me proud.

Earlier he asked me to go to the movies to watch Zootopia. He doesn't ask for much, so I took him. We had another date. We stopped by the grocery store first. Yes, we bring our own snacks. I told you that I don't like to spend unnecessary money. It doesn't matter if I was rich, I still refuse to pay those high prices for movie popcorn or candy. That is just criminal and wasteful.

The movie turned out to be really enjoyable. Especially the parts with the sloths. It's a must see for anyone with children. I would definitely watch it again. 

I came home and went to bed. It feels like my life is in disarray. I guess it's harder for me because I am newly diagnosed.Maybe it will become easier to accept as time goes on. But I don't want to have this disease as time goes on. I want to get rid of it. It's consuming my mind. How much time do I have left? Does Dr. Sebi's stuff really work? Does the conventional medication kill it's patience secretly with the side effects? If I die, what would my life have been worth?


  1. Xoxoxoxo its me Good job dont give up Queen. I want to go before the congress and make them answer as to why this was developed in the first place? Secondly about the Meds used to treat something that was man made. Ive been thinking of going on natural cures like licorice, Coenzyme Q10, oil of oregano. I'm going to continue this medicine until my next visit at that point I will decide to stay on it or get rid of it. Homeopathic natural medicine is what I would love to use. SINCE GOING VEGAN I DONT get sick it seems like. I lost 5 more lbs I want to get down to 160 Or so. I have 15 more lbs to go. I feel like getting a test and being annoynomous. I feel HIV IS A LIE from researching more it seems it do not cause Aids . I watched Dr Morse you tube videos and its about money I feel. Did you know they use Africa as a scare tactic. Research some of the videos. They doe over there from That nasty water and being malnutrition. Their president dont even allow them to take Azt over there. We are so uninformed and mislead just for financial gain at the hands of these Rich Devils. #KEEPYOURHEADUPQUEEN

    1. They will never admit that they created this horrible disease. This disease was a form of population control just as the food is that they are relentlessly tampering with. America is trying to keeps it's numbers down by any means necessary. They even want to send immigrants back despite the fact that this entire nation is comprised of immigrants aside from the natives whom they've massacred and placed in a tiny play pen and told to be satisfied that they are still alive. The only reason they are still here is because they had nowhere to send them back to. But that's a whole 'nother story.

      So, are you currently on meds now? Which one? How has it been working for you? I have heard that the HIV meds are very effective so why would you want to switch? Just curious.

      Lol! I strongly urge you to go get that anonymous test and let me know how it comes out. I'm looking forward to doing so in as little as three months from now. Do the Western Blot. I believe that's what it's called.

      You will definitely shed weight with a vegan lifestyle. Fitness/health is 70% in the kitchen and 30% in the gym.

      I'm confused about the next part of your statement. Doesn't AIDS just mean that a person's immune system has gotten to a level that is so weak that your body is susceptible to fatal illnesses? Are you saying that HIV and AIDS do not correlate? Just asking because you sparked my curiosity. But I am definitely convinced that AIDS, just like cancer and public parking, are all about money.

      Is AZT the drug that the guy purchased and raised the price on?

      What should I type in the search engine to learn about the condition of Africa? All I know is that they denied free help from Dr. Sebi to cure all of Africa of AIDS. The president said he didn't want a cure so Sebi left.

      Thanks for the hugs! XOXOXOXOXO

      -Queen Selah

  2. I'm Looking for an answer to what I should do as well I have 2 kids and I'm only 29yrs of age and believe I was taking advantage by a couple that is hiv positive or has AIDS not sure really don't care because I should've made better decisions on who I surround myself around. But, hey I believe we have a well to do whatever is possible. I believe that we can kick this in the but if we have the backup and support from everyone that has expirenced or even research on the matters in hand. I have dr. Sebi's products and haven't use them yet. Really its because I haven't got everything together to where I can begin the diet as well. I'm not really scare just don't want anything to change for the worst I'm trying to better my health not worsen it. So hopefully I will get the will power to know what need to be done and how to do it. Only time will tell. I will also be writing my experience with this whole journey.

    1. You're absolutely right queen, no point in beating yourself up about how you got it. Let's try to find a solution and focus our energy on that. No one is here to judge you. I want us all to get better. We all make mistakes. A lot of them just doesn't cost us our lives.

      I'm 29 years old also and I have one child. If you have a decent support system, I think you should use Dr. Sebi's method. I suggest his method because the only thing it can hurt is your finances. Other than that, it definitely makes you fell better and healthier all around unlike the HIV/AIDS medications. They have horrible side effects and pump you with acids. Not to mention they are always going under some sort of trial testing and our lives are valuable. We are not guinea pigs.

      If you're not 100% confident in Sebi's methods then I suggest you take the antiviral medication ALONG WITH his herbal treatment.

      Just take it one day at a time with the diet. I know people say if I was sick I would eat whatever I have to to get better. But once the shoe is on the other foot, they will see that it's not necessarily that easy.

      Best wishes,

      Queen Selah

    2. I am the same age and have no kids and it is definitely hard to be consistent. It's a bit cheaper but NOT convenient.

    3. Are you using Dr.. Sebi's method? If so, please share with me which part of parts you found to be inconvenient. We may be struggling in the same area. Have you seen progress in your health?



  3. Thank You for sharing your story it's so brave. I heard turmeric can cure HIV. I have never been diagnosed with the disease but I take it every day just to be healthy and proactive. I use an essential oil but I hear it's best to use it in everything and cook the actual herb. You have to saturate the system for at least 4 months because that's the virus life cycle. I think using a turmeric essential oil that's organic along with a vegan diet and actually consuming turmeric and figi water will cure you. I'm by no means a dr and I have just done a lot of reading and watched a lot of videos. Good luck on your healing journey. I'm so proud of you for being proactive with your health and not giving up. It's just a virus you can beat it!!!!

    1. Thank you so much for all of the tips. I'm sure my readers will find it helpful.

  4. Sorry saturate the system for at least 3* months