|"Nothing will work unless you do."|
|"The day I start to care what others think is the day I lose myself."|
After lunch with the guys, I didn't return to work. I picked up my son from school, stopped by the post office, then got him ready for karate practice. I had a pep talk with him about always pushing himself and never becoming comfortable. He is very good at karate and have won national championships. However, I don't want him to get comfortable in his past successes in any area of life. I told him if he wants to remain the champ in his class he needs to keep working and putting forth effort, not as if he has something to lose, but as if he has more to gain.
"Everybody wants a REAL relationship until they meet someone who exemplifies REAL standards. Then all of a sudden they aren't 'ready'."-Elrick Jones Jr.
Earlier today, my friend stopped by to see me. He has been trying to find time in his schedule to see me for a few weeks now. I told him I had to take my son to practice soon but he said he could still come by for a little while. He was waiting for me when I pulled up from work. We talked for a little while until it was time for me to leave. My son saw him out while I went into my bedroom to get dressed. When I came outside I heard my friend saying, "you'll have to ask your mom."
I didn't think much of it at the moment. But it turns out that my son asked him if he would volunteer to be his new dad. The fact that he used the word "new" broke my heart. Anthony was a real father to him. Nothing that took place between us could deny that. Now that he has had a father figure around, he misses him.
My friend called me the next day to tell me this. He said he was honored because he didn't know that my son liked him so much. Later, I asked my son why did he want him to be his new dad? He said because he is nice to him and has big muscles for the ladies. Lol. I had to laugh. My son is so funny sometimes.
Then I asked him what he thinks the duties of a dad is. He said to play with him and protect his wife and kid. He said I would be the wife. Lol. Once again, I had to laugh. My baby is so innocent. I explained to him that the ideal situation is for a man and woman to be married in order to have a child, but it is not always the way things happen. He laughed and continued. He said a dad would come to his games also.
My poor baby. These are all of the things that Anthony did with him. But he'll be fine. I may not be a man, but I can do everything they do. My only hope is that it is enough for my little prince. He says it is. My only fear is that he doesn't grow up with a void in his heart no matter how much I do for him. I told him that he is going to be a great husband to his wife when he grows up, based on the way he views family structure and roles. He said he knows. Lol. This short guy makes me laugh.
I took my treatment today...