Wednesday, February 3, 2016

Day 75 - Tuesday, February 2, 2016


Image result for black history month quotes

This morning I decided to get back on board with my smoothies. I haven't made one in a while since I began that relentless fast. So, I whipped up a mango, banana, sour sop smoothie and placed it in my purse to take to work for lunch. I packed my capsules as well and headed out. I'm beginning to take them later and later in the day. I want to get back to taking them at 8 in the morning like I have been doing, but I am finding that the later I take them in the morning, the more settled my stomach is and can handle the effects much better.

I still have my two to three morning bowel movements before I leave my home though. But they don't hurt my stomach like when I take the treatment first.

When I got to work, I was able to step out for a few moments to contact my insurance company. My nerves are bad because it is getting closer to my doctor's appointment date. I think it is too early to see results from Dr. Sebi's package because I did the blood work almost three days after I began the products. I'm not exactly sure. I can't remember. But I know it was early. I don't want to hear any more bad news. And I know if there isn't a significant change in the results, my brother will no longer support my decision to follow Dr. Sebi's route to healing. Which, if he doesn't, I will still continue this regimen. It just feels better with his support.

So, I've been super nervous about that. My insurance confirmed that I could attend both appointments with the Infectious Disease specialists. They said there is no limit. I sure hope they know what they are talking about. I made her repeat it twice for verification. So, I have one appointment on the 4th of this month with the facility downtown that I did not want to go to. But my brother was worried about my T-cell count and wanted me to find the soonest appointment available. They had me do blood work about two weeks ago so I will go to see the results and whatever else comes along with seeing one of these specialists. This will be my first time.

My next appointment is on the 9th of this month with the facility that I am very interested in going to because their doctor has the best reputation and professional review/referral that I have heard of so far. They will be my primary specialists. I'm going to have them to perform more blood work since it will be closer to a month by the time I see them. I will use those results to gage how well Dr. Sebi's treatment is affecting me.

So, I informed my brother of the fact that I can go to both appointments. He knows that I prefer the other doctor so he was happy about that.

After work, I took my son to basketball practice and enjoyed seeing him smile and run around with his peers. Moments like that make me thankful to be alive. After practice, I stayed later and ran some passing and dribbling drills with him one-on-one to help him develop better control of the ball. His shooting is improving by itself. I love him to pieces.

Later in the day, I was at a restaurant with my son while he ate lunch when one of Anthony's friends spotted my car in the parking lot. He came inside and began talking to me. He asked me where Anthony is. I told him I found out he was gay and kicked him out. He began talking to me about several occurrences he witnessed when Anthony was around him and I immediately became sick to my stomach. He told me I was beautiful and successful and not to worry about that. I would find another man in no time. I guess he didn't understand that I am not interested in ANY man ever. I think they are all gay and undercover now. And now that I think of it, he might even be gay. I cut our conversation short and went to cry in the car.

I wish I could erase all memories and ties with Anthony and just focus on curing myself. I wish these were the times where they didn't test the blood before administering transfusions so I could have contracted it that way and not by someone I love. A transfusion would be easier to cope with.

I went home and laid in bed while my son completed his homework. I am so proud of his recent independence. He is stepping it up. The master teacher from the discussion group has been calling and texting me every day. He told me it's weird that he feels like he loves me already and we haven't even met. He said sometimes he wants to say he misses me but it's weird. He went on to ask me what would it take to make me his? That I am what he needs in his life and I would elevate him to higher levels. And then...he just said it. He said he loves me. Geez!

My heart sank. He is what I've always needed and thought never existed. And I figured that if it did exist, a person like that would never give me the time of day or be interested. But here he was in all his glory. Too little, too late. But I always elevate EVERY man I have ever been with. I'm tired of that because I have yet to receive my elevation from any partner of mine. It's my turn to be on the receiving end. And I am sure that he can provide that elevation. It's just so sad that I am in this current condition. 

Talking to him makes me feel normal again. I want to keep everything just the way it is. I don't want him to wait for me or any of that stuff. Just continue to talk and teach me from our current distance. That is the safest thing to do on all levels. Now, is not the time for dating. I've learned that when you get into a relationship you end up having to delegate your time and attention on other things outside of you. I have been enjoying the power of being able to focus only on myself and my son. Things are getting done this way.

I went to bed early, immediately after speaking with him. I was exhausted. I missed the conference call for the night but I got plenty of rest. However, even though I received 9 hours of sleep, I still woke up extremely tired. My son was exhausted as well. I need a vacation badly. But I'm going to keep pushing.



Time
Dr. Sebi Product
Dosage
Form
8:00 AM
Bio Ferro
3 capsules in the A.M. & P.M.
Capsules
8:00 AM
Bromide Plus
4 capsules daily
Capsules
8:00 AM
Chelation 2
2 capsules in the A.M. & P.M.
Capsules
8:00 AM
Estro
4 capsules daily
Capsules
8:00 AM
Fucus
2 capsules in the A.M. & P.M.
Capsules
8:00 AM
Green Food
4 capsules daily
Capsules
8:00 AM
Lupulo
Add ½ tsp. in one ounce of water, take 3 times daily.
Tonic
8:00 AM
Lymphalin
3 capsules in the A.M. & P.M.
Capsules
8:00 AM
Viento
4 capsules daily
Capsules

Time
Dr. Sebi Product
Dosage
Form
10:00 PM
Bio Ferro
3 capsules in the A.M. & P.M.
Capsules
10:00 PM
Lily of the Valley
Pour 1 cup of boiling water to 1/8 tsp of powder, let cool and drink.
Powder
10:00 PM
Chelation 2
2 capsules in the A.M. & P.M.
Capsules
10:00 PM
Fucus
2 capsules in the A.M. & P.M.
Capsules
10:00 PM
Lupulo
Add ½ tsp. in one ounce of water, take 3 times daily.
Tonic
10:00 PM
Lymphalin
3 capsules in the A.M. & P.M.
Capsules

No comments:

Post a Comment