Sunday, January 17, 2016

Day 57 - Friday, January 15, 2016

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"People who die by suicide don't want to end their lives. They want to end their pain."
-Unknown
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So today has been one of my worst days by far on this journey, other than the day I actually found out my ex was homosexual and infected. It started out pretty smoothly. I'm still fasting and using the cleansing package I purchased from Dr. Sebi's office and having between three to eight bowel movements per day.

Allow me to just pause for a moment and apologize in advance for the quality of my writing. I'm very emotional right now and I doubt any of my sentences will be clear, concise, or easy to understand. I really don't want to do this blog anymore but I don't want anyone thinking the government got me or the FDA shut me down. I said that would be the only reason I stop writing.

Anyway, so when I got home from work, the doctor called me to give me the rest of my lab results. It turns out my T-cells were SUPER LOW! Lower than I, or anyone else, could have anticipated. My T-cell count was 115. The doctor said with those numbers I should be laid up in a hospital bed somewhere coughing up mucus. She said she didn't understand because those numbers are too low and I am in perfect health aside from the virus and I go to the gym often.

I pretty much stopped listening after she gave me the results. I felt as if my body was playing tricks on me. As if I could die at any moment and I wouldn't be able to know because my body keeps telling me I am superwoman. I became scared. I began to think about my son living without me sooner than I anticipated. I cried and called my brother. He also said the numbers and my outer health didn't make sense. We did a 3-way call and contacted the Infectious Disease Specialist's office and my brother spoke with the nurse to see if they could give me an earlier appointment based on my low results. She said she would see what she could do if anyone cancelled.

I was now in full panic mode. Everything I had planned was out the window now. Now, I want to take the medication from the doctor's office. I don't want to die. I'm not ready. I'm too young. They said there is a pill you only have to take once a day and all f their patients are happy with it and seeing great results. The nurse told us of patients who have come to their office with T-cell counts less than 100, got on the medication, and are now in the normal range. I saw a glimmer of hope there and was anxious to partake because my time is rapidly running out and I still don't have enough money for the Therapeutic Package from Dr. Sebi that cures AIDS. At least I know my insurance will cover the medications prescribed by the doctor. I didn't want to blog anymore.

My brother warned mew to be careful because I have an overly powerful mind and if I begin to think I am sick. Then I will become sick. It's so funny that he said that because I immediately got a fever. They said I could die soon and now I feel like it. I no longer felt like that undefeatable goddess that I was only a few days ago. I couldn't form complete, coherent sentences anymore. I couldn't speak properly. So I asked that brother to tell my other brother the news. We did a 3-way call and my brother informed him of the results. My brother was shocked. He's a calm person but I could tell that he was silently panicking for me. He told me he loves me and he doesn't do that often. That made me feel like he knew I was dying.

He told me to take his credit card and get whatever I needed to get better. But I refused because I hate to have people's financial information, regardless of who they are. So, I suggested that I just call Dr. Sebi's office to order the products and when they get on the phone I would connect him in a 3-way. This was almost at 7pm in my city and the office is located in California. So, I wasn't sure if they were still open. My brother said they should be because our time zone is ahead of theirs.

So, I called the office and held the phone for 58 minutes before someone answered. Her name was Alda. I connected my brother into the conversation where we were both able to speak with her and ask questions. She told me about one patient that she is dealing with that had my same condition. He ordered the same $1500 package that I was getting. A month later, he went to the doctor, and came out "undetected." I can't use the word cured at this moment because that was not the word she used. I still believe a cure is possible, and in the event that I am cured, I will let you all know.

So after the Q&A session, my brother purchased the package for me. I cried as always. I'm a cry baby at times. Alda told us in the event that I am not cured after the first month and I don't have enough money to purchase the package again, I can get a smaller, less potent package for less money until I can afford the best one. She said the package would be delivered in 2-4 days.

My brother saved my life. He restored my hope by purchasing the package for me, Because I know that he doesn't really believe in Dr. Sebi's claims 100%. But because I believe him, he believes now. I was just about ready to give up and give in to conventional medicine. But now is my chance to test Dr. Sebi's theory full throttle. I'm at the end of my rope. Let's see if this stuff can bring me back to life. In the meantime, my brother is going to try to call other Infectious Disease Specialists to see if he can find me an earlier appointment.

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Treatment:

Treatment
Form
Brand
Dosage
Bromide Plus
Capsules
Dr. Sebi
4 capsules daily
Bio Ferro
Capsules
Dr. Sebi
3 caps in the a.m. & p.m.
Chelation 2
Capsules
Dr. Sebi
2 caps in the a.m. & p.m.
Black Elderberry
Capsules
Gaia Herbs
2 caps b.i.d.
Black Elderberry
Liquid Extract
Herb Pharm
1 full dropper t.i.d.
Burdock Root
Capsule
Nature’s Way
2 capst.i.d.
Dandelion
Liquid Extract
Herb Pharm
1 full dropper t.i.d.
Sarsaparilla
Capsules
Solaray
3 caps b.i.d.
Yellow Dock
Capsules
Solaray
1 cap b.i.d.
Red Clover
Liquid Extract
Gaia Herbs
1 full dropper t.i.d.
Bladderwrack
Capsule
Nature’s Way
1 casule daily
Damiana
Capsule
Nature’s Way
2 caps b.i.d.
Kelp
Capsule
Nature’s Way
1 cap daily

5 comments:

  1. Wow! 😢 Take it easy sis, breathe. My thoughts are with you. You have every right to feel every emotion! I am rooting for you! Your brother, your not other. Guiding spirits be with you for comfort and protection.

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    1. Thank you Empress. I'm trying to pull myself back together now.

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  2. hello, my name is Mikhala hubbard, i am a 21 year old black young woman and i love you more than any Female/male role model in the world. i just statered reading about your journey today and already i have learned so much from you, and cried so much for you. please dont stop your blog. i just started this life style of eating and its been hard. because im pretty much homeless, and im jobless, i live off of foodstamps and is not easy to find/be able to buy the right foods that i need. I started the beginning of this year, and the start of this month i have completely cut out eggs and whole wheat (it's in a lot of foods that claim to be good for you, but its not). But after reading your blog as far as i have, I've found this feeling of control that i know now I need to have for this path, and will only make me better in the long run. please believe in yourself, and trust in the ways of the original way of life, and our days will be long. -hugs and kisses!!! Mikhala

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    1. Wow Mikhala! This by far, was the most touching comment I have ever received from any one of my readers. I truly appreciate your openness and appreciation for my blog.I have so many things I could tell you and tips to help you in the right direction, not only for your health, but for your life as well. Unfortunately, I have backed away from my blog and am trying to pull myself together.
      I don't know if you are reading this, but I would like to help you. We've all been through things. My story did NOT start here. That's why I believe it is important that we share our stories with each other to let others know they are not alone in this fight. We must encourage and uplift each other.Being on Foodstamps is not who you are. It's just a stage in your life that you can use as a steeping stone. Don't even worry about that. One thing at a time queen.

      See, people like you are the reason I started the GoFundMe account. I want everyone to be healed. If everyone who reads my blog donated at least five to ten dollars per week, I would be able to purchase and send packages to those in need. The only thing I would ask for is for anyone who received a package to share their experience and progress. It doesn't have to be a daily blog like mine, but at least an update so we would know that person is doing okay. But no one donated to the cause. I'm sorry sis. But I'll try to be here as best as I can.

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    2. Oh, and I almost forgot, I LOVE YOU TOO MIKHALA!

      Don't give up.

      -Queen Selah

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