Thursday, December 31, 2015

Day 41 - Wednesday, December 30, 2015

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"You don't need another human being to make your life complete, but let's be honest. Having your wounds kissed by someone who doesn't see them as disasters in your soul, but cracks to put their love into, is the most calming thing in this world."
-Emery Allen

Treatment
Form
Brand
Dosage
Bio Ferro
Liquid Tonic
Dr. Sebi
2 tbsp b.i.d.
Black Elderberry
Capsule 1,150mg
Gaia Herbs
2 caps b.i.d.
Black Elderberry
Liquid Extract
Herb Pharm
1 full dropper b.i.d.
Burdock
Capsule 425mg
Solaray
1 cap t.i.d.
Sarsaparilla
Capsules
Solaray
3 caps b.i.d.

I have something to tell you. Do you want the good news, or the bad news first? I'll give you the good news. The good news is that I was finally able to set a doctor's appointment to have lab work done with my new doctor using my medical insurance from my employer. It kicks in on the first of the year. My appointment is for January 11th at 10 o'clock. They scheduled me for a physical. I made sure I confirmed that this "physical" includes blood work and she assured me that it did. This will be my first time seeing this doctor and my first time seeing a doctor since I've been diagnosed. So we will be able to have a baseline cell count to work with in no time. That's great news, right?! The bad news is it's not January 11th yet. Bummer!

Smoothie of the Day: Banana, mango, sour sop, blackberry, and dates.

When I got to work this morning, there was a white paper bag on my desk with the words "Good morning mija!" written in black marker. I opened the bag, peered inside, and what did I find?! A warm croquetta staring right back at me! The devil is truly busy. Lol. My co-worker with her foolishness again. Cubans are the devil when you're trying to follow a strict diet. Food is their culture. Once I saw what was in the bag, all I could do was laugh. I realize there are a lot of people who admire my discipline with my eating habits and aspire to be as strong as I, yet they constantly test me. I'm beginning to understand what's going on here.

I drank my smoothie with walnuts for lunch. It was a surprisingly tasty combination. I will try it more often. The walnuts also make the smoothie more filling.

I left work a few hours early for no real reason at all. But when I got home, my body immediately gave out and shut down. I fell into a deep sleep on the couch for about two and a half hours. My body needed that. That's usually what my body does when my menstrual cycle is about to begin. The problem is that eating the foods from Dr. Sebi's Nutritional Guide gives me so much energy that I can't sleep at night. I end up staying up super late, snacking on mangoes and watching Grey's Anatomy until my eyes turn red. I'm still on Season 3 and the plot continues to thicken. I'm glad I have something to keep my mind occupied so I don't have to think too deeply into my situation or about Anthony. I don't want to slip back into depression. Every thing happens at the right time. I have NEVER been a TV lover but now, I can't seem to turn it off. I usually only watch it at night time.

I had three bowel movements today.

I had leftovers for dinner and half of my son's salad. I got a lot of studying done today. Studying helps you to stay on course. I learned more about Dr. Sebi's teachings and found other sources that reinforced his claims of the herbs and alkaline eating. I read a lot about the benefits black elderberry, sarsaparilla, and burdock have on the blood, so I decided to re-introduce them to my treatment regimen. I was also able to finally read a few testaments of several people claiming they were cured of illnesses by Dr. Sebi. It's very difficult to find testimonies which actually use the word "cured." They usually speak of great improvement in their health. None of them were H.I.V. or AIDS but I assume no one wants to come forward with such a disease which has such a horrible stigma attached to it. Once, I am cured, I plan on telling the world. I have nothing to lose. If I was interested in dating again, maybe I wouldn't be so free with that information. But I'm not. I guess I was researching testimonies because I needed a little hope to hang on to today, and I found it.

I drank a lot of water today. It was to the point where when I sat on the toilet, I would urinate at an average of four to five times in six minutes, before getting up. It was phenomenal! I could almost feel the toxins leaving my body. Refreshing, to say the least. My urine is crystal clear. No exaggeration. It actually looks just like water. That's all I've been drinking for the past few months. By the end of the night, I was able to drink Dr. Sebi's recommended 1 gallon of spring water for the day. Any day that you can get a gallon down is a great day in Sebian history. I definitely feel accomplished. I struggled with being able to get a gallon down in the past. But each day gets easier. It's almost becoming like clockwork. I drink the most water at night for some reason.

My pH levels have finally risen to 7. I am feeling undefeatable at the moment. I'm on an accomplishment high today. One thing about having this disease is your emotions can go up and down at any given moment without notice.

Day 40 - Tuesday, December 29, 2015

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"Time heals all wounds. But not this one. Not yet."
-Marie Lu, Champion

Today, I made a sour sop, mango, blackberry, banana, and kale smoothie. As I snack, I had banana chips and walnuts. For dinner I consumed "Old Faithful." The reliably satisfying mushroom, onion, burro banana, and spelt dumpling meal. Before bed, I ate a red pear. They have to be the juiciest pears ever. And they are delectably sweet.

My brother asked me if I had heard anything back from the clinic yet and I informed him of the frustration I've been experiencing with that issue.

Treatment
Form
Brand
Dosage
Bio Ferro
Liquid Tonic
Dr. Sebi
2 tbsp b.i.d.

Tuesday, December 29, 2015

Day 39 - Monday, December 28, 2015


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"There is a crack in everything. That's how the light gets in."
-Leonard Cohen, Selected Poems, 1956-1968

Today, I made a sour sop, banana, kale and mango smoothie. Friends and coworkers have been offering to pay me on a weekly basis to make smoothies for them as well. I am a bit reluctant to do so because I believe they are more interested in the weight loss aspect of it than its health benefits. My uniform fits very loosely on me now. It was tight when I was first fitted for it. I almost requested a larger size. I am so glad that I didn't. Now I want to put in a request for a smaller set. They fit so baggy now. Also, I'm not that confident in myself to provide services for others. As much as I could use the money to put towards my package, I don't want to take on such a responsibility then end up letting someone down. I have been considering making the smoothies for one of my coworkers because she has Parkinson's disease. She's not interested in curing the Parkinson's but she says she is always constipated. She says she has one bowel movement every three to five days. I am confident that I can help her in that area with no problem! Ha ha ha.

While at work, my coworker came in with her lunch engulfing the room with such a tasty aroma that I almost chopped her in the throat. She's knows about my strict diet and she brought that temptation right next to me. She could have ate that in the kitchen. But I sat through it because I have to learn to program myself to resist temptation in the real world. Once she was finished, I asked her what she had for lunch. As soon as I asked her she began to apologize because she realized what she had done. I laughed and told her it was okay. It really wasn't though. Lol. Just kidding. Then she told me she had left work to go to a funeral and help out her aunt with serving the food. It was soul food, baked chicken, green beans, pigeon peas and rice, macaroni and cheese, and cornbread. Oh, how that sounded like music to my ears and destruction to my body! One can dream, right? That smell was torture. Even while it sat in the garbage bin.

After work, I snacked on banana chips while I prepared my sour sop, banana, kale, and mango smoothie. Before bed, I curled up on the couch snacking on walnuts while I watched Grey's Anatomy, Season 3, before I drifted off to sleep. I'm in love with that show. George married Cali and Burke just asked Christina to marry him. I hope she says yes because I am living my life vicariously through Christina on this show. And I'm really disappointed that George married Cali after she slept with his coworker. Burke and Christina are the only ones on the show who have not slept around. Izzy has not slept with anyone other than Alex either. Sorry for the side-bar. That show is my sourceof peace lately, as I am not a very social or outgoing person. I love to be in the safe confines of my home with my little Cuddle Bug (my son).

Treatment
Form
Brand
Dosage
Bio Ferro
Liquid Tonic
Dr. Sebi
2 tbsp b.i.d.

I have been taking it easy with the treatments lately. Not because I have been experiencing any adverse affects or anything. But just because I wanted to be more organized with my approach. Not all of the herbs I have been taking are geared toward curing my disease, but they are all good for you. What I want to do is hone in on the ones specific to H.I.V. more than anything else. So, I am still doing my research. I know that Dr. Sebi's Bio Ferro product aids in reversing H.I.V. That's why I am still taking it. Sarsaparilla and guaco does as well. So i will probably be taking those again soon. I have to sort through the others to see there role against my disease. But I will continue to follow the Nutritional Guide to the best of my ability.

I will address three of the products today. Dr. Sebi has the following products, Bio Ferro Capsules, Bio Ferro Tonic, and Bromide Plus. I will list their ingredients below:

Bio Ferro Capsules:
Chaparral
Burdock
Yellow Dock
Nopal
Ortiga
Sarsaparilla

Bio Ferro Tonic:
Yellow Dock
Burdock
Sarsaparilla
Elderberry
Cocolmeca

Bromide Plus:
Irish Sea Moss
Bladderwrack

If you have been paying attention to my previous posts and the treatments I had been taking, you would notice that I was already taking the Bromide Plus almost on a daily basis. I would make smoothies with Irish Sea Moss in them and take a Bladderwrack capsule everyday. As for the other items, I was taking Burdock, Yellow Dock, Sarsaparilla, and Elderberry daily as well.

These are the choices I chose to make because I can't wait to be healed and I wanted a head start on getting better. However, I do not know the amounts of each herb included in Dr. Sebi's products. I was using my own discretion. That's why I am trying to save for HIS recommended package as soon as possible. He didn't win a Supreme Court case for nothing. Whether or not, I or anyone else believes in him, HE HAS CURED AIDS, and I only have H.I.V. Call me optimistic, yet well-informed.

Day 38 - Sunday, December 27, 2015

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"Shoot for the moon, even if you fail, you'll land among the stars."
-Cecelia Ahern, P.S. I Love You

After taking the Bio Ferro on an empty stomach, my eyes began to throb. I made a smoothie with the 3 herbs, mango, bananas, bananas and sour sop. The only thing I ate other than the smoothie was a salad from Wendy's. I know the salad was not approved because I could not identify what type of lettuce they used. Iceberg lettuce is forbidden by Dr. Sebi. It was a cheat but I needed a quick fix and that was the healthiest one I could find. Yummy!

On another note, my brother deposited $200 dollars in my bank account on Christmas. I used some of the money to order more products from Dr. Sebi and put the rest in my savings account to go towards the package that will cure H.I.V. I'm slowing down on taking the other brands of herbs and treatments because I will be seeing a doctor soon and I want to gather as many of Dr. Sebi's products to use as possible.

After ordering the first product from his office I noticed that they sent a list of the ingredients used in all of his products. I think that is very admirable of him. He's not just trying to make money. He wants to educate us. He gives away just about all of his information for free. Even the videos and speaking events that he attends are a wealth of knowledge. You can find out just about everything you need to know about healing just by listening to him. I watch and listen to his videos while I'm at work with my headphones on or plug it in to my auxiliary cord in my car while I'm driving. Even when you're not fully paying attention, you can soak up a lot of information without realizing it.

I was purchasing all the herbs that were on his ingredients list from other entities because they were cheaper. But once I see the doctor I plan on only taking the real deal Dr. Sebi products only. But keep in mind, plans do change. I have to take whatever I can afford to get better. One thing about Dr. Sebi is that he NEVER said to only take his products. He simply tells us which herbs to consume to treat which ailments. For some reason, I always buy the Bio Ferro straight from him. Maybe because it addresses the blood. I may post in a future entry some of the ingredients from his products. If you order his products you'll be able to see them yourselves. You can order and view his products at www.drsebiscellfood.com. You will find everything you need there.

My plan is to purchase as many Dr. Sebi products as I can before seeing the doctor, while saving for the All Inclusive Therapeutic Package that his office said I need to cure my H.I.V. This package is $1500 for a month's supply and you take it as many months as required to cure you. According to his office, clients have been able to cure themselves anywhere from 12 days to 18 months. Due to the fact that I have never smoked or consumed alcohol, and I frequent the gym quite often. I think I have a fairly good chance of reversing this disease in a short period of time. I'm hoping for four months at the most. But I will go for as long as it takes. I rather pay $1500 a month for a few months thank to pay that same amount for the rest of my life for HIV medication that NEVER cures you.

I want my life back. Not just to be treated and have a decent quality of life on HIV medication. I want MY life back. Where I can kiss my son, give blood again, and not worry about infecting others. This whole situation has caused me to love myself a lot more. I thought I already loved myself but I realize there was room for improvement in that area. Once I am cured, I will never allow myself to get anywhere near this situation again. I should have never slept with someone unprotected without seeing a recent H.I.V. test result no matter how long I've known them. That's the bottom line.

Treatment
Form
Brand
Dosage
Bio Ferro
Liquid Tonic
Dr. Sebi
2 tbsp b.i.d.

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Monday, December 28, 2015

Day 37 - Saturday, December 26, 2015

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"And so I wait. I wait for time to heal the pain and raise me to my feet once again - so that I can start a new path, my own path, the one that will make me whole again."
-Jack Canfield, Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul II

Treatment
Form
Brand
Dosage
Bio Ferro
Liquid Tonic
Dr. Sebi
2 tbsp b.i.d.

I made a smoothie containing the three healing herbs, banana, sour sop, mango, and agave.

Whenever I take the 3 herbs I can feel the effects immediately. My stomach bubbles a bit. Then I have a bowel movement. I have had three bowel movements today.

I have been craving chocolate chip cookies for some reason but I am trying desperately to fight it. I don;t know why I have been messing up with my eating so much lately.

For dinner, I made burro (green) banana porridge with hemp milk and sweetened with agave for my sugar craving, but it didn't taste that good. This was my first time attempting to make it so I will definitely try it again a different way. But later, I took my son to the amusement park and worked up an appetite after which I ended up getting a cheeseburger, small fries and an ice cream sunday from McDonald's. Milk is the worst thing you can put in your body when fighting mucus. I felt like I wanted the food so badly until it finally hit my tongue. But I ate it anyway because I paid for it and hate to waste money and food.

Day 36 - Friday, December 25, 2015

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"We are healed of a suffering only by experiencing it to the full."
-Marcel Proust

I have been spitting up mucus every time I eat foods that are not on Dr. Sebi's Nutritional Guide. The fact that that only happens when I do so leads me to believe that I have rid my body of the majority of mucus and eating those foods cause more to form. When I began eating alkaline foods three months ago was the only time my body expelled mucus. It was only in the beginning.

Also, whenever I veer from the list with other foods I get sleepy immediately and my eyes begin to throb. The approved foods always give me energy.

On another note, I had a dream that Anthony finally came clean and admitted that he was gay (bisexual). He told me that Kevin doesn't nag or question him and let's him do whatever he wants as long as he comes home to him at night and goes to bed with him. He said Kevin gave him one of his cars (which is true), gives him money and everything he wants. He said even with all of that he's still in love with me and no one has ever made him feel the way I did. Anthony said no one has ever made him step up to the plate and be a man the way I did.

This dream made me sick to my stomach and I woke up in tears. Fuck him and his selfish lifestyle!!!

Treatment
Form
Brand
Dosage
Bio Ferro
Liquid Tonic
Dr. Sebi
2 tbsp b.i.d.

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Day 35 - Thursday, December 24, 2015

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"I don't think of all the misery, but of the beauty that still remains."
-Anne Frank, The Diary of a Young Girl

Treatment
Form
Brand
Dosage
Black Elderberry
Capsule 1,150mg
Gaia Herbs
2 caps t.i.d.
Bladderwrack
Capsule 580mg
Nature’s Way
1 cap daily
Burdock
Capsule 425mg
Solaray
1 cap t.i.d.
Damiana
Capsule
Nature’s Way
2 caps t.i.d.
Dandelion
Capsule
Solaray
2 caps t.i.d.
Ginger Root
Capsule 250mg
Solaray
1 cap daily
Kelp
Capsules
Nature’s Way
1 cap daily
Myrrh Gum
Capsules
Solaray
1 cap t.i.d.
Sarsaparilla
Capsules
Solaray
3 caps b.i.d.
Yellow Dock
Capsule 500mg
Solaray
1 cap b.i.d.
Black Elderberry
Liquid Extract
Herb Pharm
1 full dropper t.i.d.
Dandelion
Liquid Extract
Herb Pharm
1 full dropper t.i.d.
Ginger
Liquid Extract
Herb Pharm
1 full dropper t.i.d.
Myrrh
Liquid Extract
Herb Pharm
1 full dropper t.i.d.
Red Clover
Liquid Extract
Gaia Herbs
60 drops t.i.d.
Yohimbe
Liquid Extract
Herb Pharm
1 full dropper t.i.d.
Yohimbe Bark
Liquid Extract
Gaia Herbs
30 drops daily
Bio Ferro
Liquid Tonic
Dr. Sebi
2 tbsp b.i.d.

It is Christmas Eve. I drank a delicious papaya, kale, mango, banana, and agave smoothie for breakfast/lunch after dropping my son off to his friend's house. When I went to pick him up, I was bombarded, once again, by free Cuban food. In the Spanish culture, it is rude to turn down food. But I also felt disrespected by my son's friend's father because he knows I am vegan and just about forced the food down my throat.

Needless to say, I gave in. And it was the worst food ever! It was the type of food I didn't eat even before I became a vegan. He made honey-baked ham, rice and beans, pasteles, and pulled pork with yuca on the side. I ate everything except the yuca and pasteles. The food was delicious, but I know it was bad for me. My body was not used to that sort of food anymore and I immediately became sick and went home. It's difficult to have a social life when you follow a strict eating regimen.